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Nov. 8th, 2007

oona

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Someone's already posted these lyrics, but I just have to re-post them.

~~~~~

Anytime, anywhere, any place
You could be anyone today
Maybe I will recognize you on a crowded street

Maybe you'll take me by surprise
Will you be the one I had in mind?


There'll come a day
When you'll walk out of my dreams
Face to face
Like I'm imagining
Baby how can I be sure
That you're the one I'm waiting for
Will you be Unmistakable?

People say we're watching our lives

Through a glass
Desperately waiting on a chance
I know you're out there
Holding on
Holding out for me

Are we gonna know the time is right
What if you're here and I'm just blind


There'll come a day
When you'll walk out of my dreams
Face to face
Like I'm imagining
Baby how can I be sure
That you're the one I'm waiting for
Will you be Unmistakable?

Oct. 30th, 2007

oona

"something I won't understand"

I confronted him tonight. I said, "I can take a hint, but if you really don't want to hang out with me, get to know me, make a new friend, just tell me." His response, "You're misunderstanding." No, I don't think I am. He tells me to call him, and that he's out at 10. Ok, fine. I walk out the door to leave, I barely make it to the car when my phone starts ringing. It's him. There's nothing he can do for me right now, I don't know anything about him. Well DUH, that's why I want to get to know him. We argue over something he keeps repeating over and over...."There are reasons why I don't talk to people, its not that I don't want to, I can't." He has to go, he's still working. He asks me to call him later.

10:45, I dial him up. We argue more. I tell him that he has to know that I'm stubborn, and I just want to know what the deal is that he can't make a new friend. "It's something that you wouldn't understand." I ask why then he did ask me if I wanted to hang out. "I thought things were better now, I thought I was in a different position, but I'm not, so I can't." He tells me that he doesn't fit into my "little Walmart World". That by FAR isn't my world, I am completely different outside of those walls.

Instinct tells me that I should leave it alone, but I'm drawn in now. He tells me that he can only talk to me at work. WHY?!

Oct. 22nd, 2007

oona

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I'm sure you're sitting there patting yourself on the back for putting one over on a "stupid chick". You apologized, passed off the digits, and then *gasp* even asked me if I wanted to hang out. Yeah, like a fucking idiot I fell for it. Apparently you aren't aware that I have feelings. No matter how many times it happens to me, it still hurts like a BITCH when I think I'm getting a chance and then I realize the joke's on me.


How the HELL am I supposed to get over my past, when to this DAY those things are STILL going on.

Oct. 15th, 2007

oona

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You've really fucked up this time, and you know what, I really don't even care. I tried and tried to tell you that you had more to lose this time around, but obviously you didn't listen. And you know what? I really don't care. You're gonna be sitting in that cell for a LONG time with the words "court marshalled" on your record. And I don't care. What I DO care about is the fact that now your son is going to be given away, and he doesn't deserve it. He deserved to be with you, you HAD your shit together and you royally fucked it up. Its your own fucking fault. I did care about what you were doing, and about the fact that you were getting into the same old garbage, but I don't anymore. You're out of my life, and not just because of the fact that you're in jail, but I've written you off. Goodbye.

Oct. 7th, 2007

oona

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I pulled an all nighter last night with Kas and her friend Brian. (aka "Nuse") She was so nervous that I wouldn't like him, but Lord he was cute!! When we finally crashed for the night..er...should I say day? We crashed in her Mom's bed..such a nice Mom she has...so there we were, Kas, Me, and Nuse all passed out on this bed. Lord I wish I had a pic of that.

Sep. 24th, 2007

oona

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One of my friends is hurt, and I can't do anything about it. I'm doing as much as I can to comfort them, but I don't know if its any use. It hurts me to see them going through this pain that they thought was finally gone. And all I can do is just tell them to keep their chin up, things will be better. :'( I wish I could do more.

Sep. 21st, 2007

oona

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I feel like I'm stoned. No, I haven't been partaking in any recreational drugs, I've got a wicked head cold, and I feel like my head is going to explode. I bent over to pick up a case of water tonight and thought my eyeballs were going to pop out of my head. Blah.

Sometimes I wish I didn't care so much about certain people. Someone showed up here early this morning just wanting a place to crash, nothing more, nothing less. After a brief conversation I found out that they have once again returned to their path of being in trouble. Only this time around they have much more to lose than before. I started a huge lecture and I swear I sounded like my Mother. This time around, a career and a child are involved. I swear, if I hadn't been so loopy, an ass kicking would have been in order.

To this person: KEEP YOUR ASS OUTTA TROUBLE!!!! I KNOW YOU'RE SO MUCH BETTER THAN THIS!!!! You know where trouble landed you the LAST time. Learn from that dammit!!!

Sep. 15th, 2007

oona

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So I said goodbye to one of my dearest friends tonight. Tara (Mom2) and her life partner Heather are moving to North Carolina. We went out dancing, there were a few tears between us on the dance floor for a bit over a line in one of my favorite songs, but then things were okay. Until............. The night ended and we were in the parking lot saying goodbye. Mom told me how proud of me she was, and how much I've grown since the first time I met her. She said, (and I'm near tears as I type this) "Any minute now you're gonna soar, and you'll be saying 'Hey Mom!! Wait up!'"

I LOVE YOU MOM2!!!

LOL....and that's exactly what I call her too!

Sep. 11th, 2007

oona

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So I've always said that my favorite season is summer, but I'm coming to realize more and more than I like fall too. I love the scent of the grapes that emerges every year, I love the thought of those brisk evenings at football games, I love going up to the Peak for the craft show, going to "Grandpa's Gift Barn" to see if they have more items to add to my collection. And I LOVE Halloween!!! Yeah....I can say that fall is high on my list.

Aug. 21st, 2007

oona

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So I was told that at Christmastime I have to meet the new girlfriend. I'm excited to, I love that he's happy, it makes ME happy. I care about him, I guess in a way he's become somewhat of a baby brother to me. I'm quite content with that. I still believe that he could possibly be my soulmate, I've been wrong about so many things, but I'm standing firm on this one.

I have but one request to the man upstairs: Keep him happy, Keep him safe, and above all, let him know that whether he chooses to realize it or not, I'm always here.

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